Thursday, January 26, 2006

Crushed dandelions

Being bombarded with thoughts of prayer and intercession... for those who pray "God I want to know Your heart, I want to hear Your voice, I want to see miracles happen.." hehe you are going to be an intercessor. What an intercessory? Someone who prays, the one who connects with God's purpose and prays for them to be fulfilled in the physical realm.

" I will offer Him my prayers, my sighs. I will pour out my heart to Him. Even their distractions, inconsistency, and deficiency, I can be confident that my prayers rise to Him like incense. He receives my imperfect prayers like a mother receives the crushed dandelions, as gifts made perfect in love. Besides, He Himself has been praying for me all along: "He is able to save completely those who come to God through Him, because He always lives to intercede for them" - Hebrews 7:25 "

- Elisabeth Elliot BE STILL MY SOUL

I thank God that He always receivese my crushed dandelions...

Still mystified

4am.

I'm thinking again, to put together Words God has been speaking to me this week vs what I have seen what I have heard...

Earlier this week a good friend sent me an article about the cruelty inflicted on the east Timorese by the Indonesians military during the invasion of East Timor. Evidence presented in a report that
Timorese President Xanana Gusmao would hand to UN Secretary-General Kofi Anan. I couldn't believe pain and burden that struck my heart when I read the article, I don't understand why but I knew it broke something within me. I dont' know why the past weeks I've had this coldness in my heart, going through the motions of duty and responsibility but my heart was numb. I inquired, silence. I wonder God why?

PRAY.
Prayed til the burden lifted. Why God? did u offer me the carrot of going there to help with malnutrition as a result of starvation used as a weapon of warfare, then take it away? is it to increase my burden to pray? AND yet something broke. Deeper level of intercession.

This time home, I look at reality. Its a different world. With what do we measure success, what is the measure of one's worth? The question of: What should we have achieved by this age, by this stage in life? By what standards do we measure ourselves again?

God knows what is going to be battling in my mind. I started to wonder and waver.
Was the tithe of one year in my life worth it when most people are out there climbing the corporate ladder. I'm 25 going to to be 26 this year.... did I waste a year? NO WAY!

PRAY.

" Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory. While we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal. "
- 2 Cor4:16-18


What does God value? People. What can u take with you to heaven? People " Naked I entered this world, naked I should leave".

" Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your labour us not in vain in the Lord"
- 1 Cor 15:58


What am I doing? What am I to do in 2006. Time to live for myself. I want my way!!

PRAY.
Submission
" For the love of Christ who compels us, because we judge thus: that if One died for all, then all died; and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again. "
- 2 Cor5:14-15


"And God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that you, always having all sufficiency in all things, may have an abundance for every good work "- 2 Cor9:8

I marvel at this thing called PRAYER


Sometimes it seems like meaningless mutterings into space, u wonder if anyone hears if its a vent of ur frustration or what u really feel that no one else in the who wide world could take and still look at you the same way.

Yet its powerful beyond measure. Able to change circumstances, break strongholds, change mindsets.

God, You use the foolish things of this world to put to shame that which is wise, You use the base things of this world to put to shame that which is proud.

You use the easiest thing to do to tear down what is impossible to achieve by the most eloquent of speech, more powerful of weaponry and what riches cannot buy. Yet sometimes its the hardest thing that we would do even the last thing? Why? perhaps its humbling to ask for help, perhaps we don't think much of getting on our knees and making out problems known to what seems to be air in a quiet room. I think its a spiritual thing too that it can be a struggle cos darkness knows its the most powerful thing to call upon the name of Jesus, that which he has no chance of victory over.

God, Your ways are a mystery.

Mystery: anything beyond the possibility of full explanation.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Back HOME!


I got it I got it !!!

Finally I got my new laptop, what did I get??


An ibook G4 12 inch, its small, colours are gorgeous and cute and etc... ok guys don't groan.. this is a typical rave from a female.. =)











I think the laptop bag is made by crumpler.. its got all the trademarks.. ok I know these are little things but yah simple things make me happy =)

Now to get the non-techy brain to get used to using a mac instead of PC.. I reckon I'll get the hang of it soon... hopefully ay

Hehe..
People ask me what I've been up to since being back? MUCKING Around.. what do u expect.. its a holiday..
Nah its like the HongKong ad, "eating and shopping" i.e Mai dong xi, Chi dong xi.. (mandarin)

FOOD
... I love food in Singapore.. Just some photos, trying not to embarass my family or friends eating with me, taking pictures like a tourist.. can't help it.. those who have been out with me know the scenario " STOP... can't eat yet.. I need to take picture..." thanks for putting up with me

Lunch today... Duck rice and noodles just outside my place..
So blessed to live here, we've got an air-conditioned prata place & only the best duck noodles in Singapore and no one can make Teh-Bing like this kopi-tiam aunty. =)

No David I didn't make ducks extinct in Singapore..
I shared this with mum and my sister..
Yummy..



This is at Lei garden, dim sum plus all other chinese delicacies.. our family EK family.. mum said more like EAT family.. haha so much choice so little calories to spare but in the words of Arnie & little stick.. : AH dunt KAaRE...






Look at my sister get into it.. (she needs it to maintain those strong biceps for handball, softball, basketball and all other ball games that she plays)


















But most importantly time with Family
Upon arrival home I was greeted with a 46inch LCD TV in the family living room.. reports from Mum is that its Dad's new best friend, pretty much a surprise especially since he's not take much of a TV person but apparently has been spending a daily 4 hr bonding session on TVB drama serials..

I got involved over the weekend... ARGH.. well lying on Dad's belly was pretty comfy and playing with this "jiggle your Fat" gadget UZAP that mum and my sister got recently on my thighs with the hope of ridding cellulite and compensating for the food while slopping in front of a giant TV screen.. talk about decadence and oxymoron. haha

And over FOOD again.. hehe maybe that's why I'm in this job. Interest cultivated from young, a father who's adventurous about food and will go all out to satisfy his taste buds.. I hope we're not getting into the gluttony category..

Dad & Mum Ekers..

Kiddy Ekers, Lister, Me and Little B (yes we will play smashing soon)
Yah we don't really look alike, that's what everyone says.. =)









Other stuff? Fiona aka ONG SEE MUN/GIRL GIRL/AUNTY ONG/MISS WHO CALL YOU came down for the weekend and PET and I took her around a bit, but Saturday is a BAD day for shopping in Singapore.. this is wat we ended up doing, playing with innovative japanese kitchen wear/ware ok.. PET took it literally but well the ones we picked out are traditional stuff. Poor Justin had to be our photographer embarassing outselves, had to remember that we're not in SYDNEY!















Ok 'Nuff for now.. til my next raid in the 2nd week featuring shopping!! and of course more food hehe.... its an obsession..

About Me

" One thing I have desired of the Lord, that will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord, And to inquire in His temple - Psalm 27:4